I was invited to a hot spring by my wife's parents. A month ago, my father-in-law, who really wanted to see his grandchildren, ordered me to abstain. I was under a lot of pressure on this trip from my father-in-law, who told me to make a decision today, but when I approached his wife, he brushed me off and said, ``I don't want to have a child right now.'' I lost sight of the pent-up sexual desire and tried to distract myself even a little, in agony.